Getting through the tough times.

We have been trying to find a better paying job, but it is hard with the ecconomy how it is. James wants to go back on the road because he thinks that will solve everything. It might make it so that finacially we are doing better, but that does nothing for getting us to the temple or getting his blessings restored. I don't know what it is with him, his willing ness to show love is a dependent on him being able to make more money and save our house. He doesn't want to be intamete because he feels like a failure. It makes me feel like I'm undesireable. I keep tring to get him to show affection and he just hides out in his computer game. He thinks that choosing to get off the road would make everything just fall into place quickly. I know that things are going to be tough right now. I know that if we keep doing the things that the Lord has told us to do that we will be a stronger family and be able to go to the temple. It is just hard to keep tring to get him to see it. I hope that we are able to find a better paying job and a place that we can afford.